Alt-Right to All Wrong: My Search for Answers
Democrats Abandon Me
2015 was the year I went from white dude to white devil. It had been brewing for years, yet, that year was the tipping point. It finally became ok to openly identify straight white men as something which needed to be “fixed.” From the Rolling Stone rape hoax, to countless University “crises”, and the general demonization of the white male, I began to realize the Democrats didn’t want me in their party. And worse, I was now the target of their hate.
A few short years ago I was an ideal Democrat living in the ideal Democrat’s city. Now suddenly I was the enemy. The world shifted as I stood still. Simply supporting gays, minorities, women, and foreign born citizens wasn’t sufficient. Now I had to bend in shame and accept the brunt of historic resentment. Though we lived in a society which was largely created by white men’s ideas and one that allowed for equality under the law – it was no longer enough and we had to be punished.
As this culture shift pushed me farther away from the left, I was compelled to seek out new political options. It was then I discovered an online community who felt the same way, so I began to observe and connect.
What is the Alt-right really about?
The term alt-right flashed across tweets and blog posts, but I didn’t really know what it was. Alt-right, the phrase, had enormous appeal. As my time with the leftwing ended, the right was seemingly my only option. But Republicans were never my people. My various preconceived notions of the Republicans kept me from seriously considering their party. So when a group appeared that seemed to offer conservative thinking yet still contained some element of fringe, the alt-right seemed like the place for me. It had a “cool factor.”
People I knew and respected coalesced around the name. I think we shared the same feeling. To me “alt-right” meant conservative but not lame. There were lots of former democrats taking on the identity. It felt right.
Now that I was persona non-grata of the progressive left, abandoned by the Democrats and vilified by all because of my race, finding a group which coalesced around some notion of white identity appealed to me. The way it was pitched sounded fair: all other groups have leaders and policies which look out for them, why shouldn’t white people?
In the context of victim culture it’s easy to see how I found some comfort in the non-specific vague offerings of a group based on white identity. Alt-right the name sounded cool and with this new target on my back, it all kind of made sense.
I tried on the name to see how it felt. I probably even called myself alt-right at one point. Unaware of the group’s more ominous origin, I thought it was merely a spontaneous creation, something people just started saying. I projected my own hopes into my understanding of the name, wanting it to be the group of people I needed to find. I wanted it to be where all us former Democrats, feeling ostracized by our own party, found like-minded people ready to prevent Hillary from winning. Few people believed Donald Trump had a chance back then, what the alternative to Clinton was we didn’t really know – we just knew Hillary had to lose. If I wanted to join the opposition to the Democrats, the alt-right seemed like a logical fit. Cool, radical, and looking out for me when no one else was.
But I was mistaken. There was a history with the word I didn’t know. And it quickly became apparent that lots of other folks didn’t either. We all needed some education. We needed to know what we were getting into. So, I began my research.
As I began to explore the alt-right I found names like Richard Spencer, Radix, National Policy Institute, alternative-right.com. This is when I began to understand what the alt-right really meant.
The movement had leaders, there were founders, and there was a main idea they coalesced around: the creation of a white ethno state.
Moreover, this white ethno state was meant to be here in the United States of America where there currently exists a multiracial multiethnic diverse population.
I was naively shocked at this discovery. I thought I had simply found a group of young republicans, a sort of punk rock conservative group. Instead I found people with grandiose visions that ran counter to my moral foundations. What they proposed seemed to be not only vile, but impossible. What the hell had I gotten myself into?
While I did feel some representation of my group on the political scene would be helpful, I abhorred the idea of creating a white ethno state on the land where my multicultural society existed today. I wasn’t ready to give up on my interpretation of America. It wasn’t that long ago that my Irish great-great parents were the dirty immigrants who would never assimilate. Yet here I am generations later as American as they come.
Still, I had gotten myself mixed up with the name and people of the alt-right, and I wanted to expose them for what they really were.
So I asked questions. Lots of questions. Just how would the creation of such a white ethno state take place? Surely, folks already self-segregate to some degree, but we still occupy the same cities, states, and land. What are you going to do? Force everyone to move?
Does the alt-right want forced migrations?
I laugh at the notion people would willingly abandon their homes and move to a different part of North America. When they rightly refuse, what’s going to happen then? Extreme violence? Blood, tears, and tragedy? That’s when I realized this alt-right stuff is not only intellectually bankrupt and wrong for me, but dangerous for all Americans.
The devil is in the details here, truly. Forced migrations and expulsions are as repugnant as they are unlikely. The likelihood parts of America would voluntarily re-segregate and force the rest to move at gunpoint is zero. What the alt-right dreams of isn’t simply a fantasy, it’s a civil war.
All I wanted was to find a common voice defending my rights as a white male and to fight back against our common vilification. I’m not interested in bloodshed.
Perhaps their goal is not to achieve an ethno state but simply to move the Overton window such that discussing white identity politics isn’t taboo. Ok, I understand this. The Overton window defines what topics are “ok” to address. Moving it is difficult. One way is to offer extreme ideas you don’t actually want hoping to normalize something less extreme which you find acceptable. It is an opening bid which anchors the discussion leading to an acceptable compromise.
I see the value in that. However, in this case the white ethno state gambit is political suicide. Proposing it, or even mentioning it, will forever taint you in the eyes of your negotiating partner. Here, the counterparty is virtually every other person in America. From what I can gather, support for a white ethno state does not exist among typical white middle America, much less among the blue states. Even if they feel left behind, isolated, and angry – red middle America is not hankering for a white country carved from a multi-ethnic United States. And they certainly would object once they realize what it would take to get there. Talking shit with your friends is one thing, fighting a war against the shop owner down the street is another.
Alt-right ain’t right for me
Obviously the alt-right didn’t fit. Its ideology was a dead-end and a disappointment. Its credibility as a useful tool in opening a space for white people to address victim culture was ruined by its own stated goals.
I concluded as such, but other folks I respected had not yet come to the same place. Assuming their sincerity and reasonableness, I took on a personal mission to reveal the contradictions and uselessness of the alt-right to my fellow travelers in the political wilderness.
As any good investigator does, I went right to the source and used their own words to make my point.
I started with the big guys: Richard Spencer and alternative-right.blogspot.com, a site that claims to be the founding site of the alt-right. I also reached out to Ramzpaul, a prominent alt-right commentator at the time. Each of them played the same game: avoid.
— Jack Murphy (@jackmurphylive) February 18, 2016
I pressed them on their ultimate goals and what their policy platforms would be. Here is how Colin and Andy of the alternative-right.blogspot.com replied:
I asked Richard Spencer on twitter and got no response.
Ramzpaul offered a vague answer which has now been deleted.
None of the bigger names in the alt-right could or would offer me a realistic plan to achieve their goals. But I kept it up, asking questions, challenging people around me to even consider the logistics of a white ethno state. And of course, I continued to talk trash about their lack of plan.
Fate delivers a meeting with the alt-right
When I unexpectedly ran into Richard Spencer at the Deploraball after-party, I couldn’t pass up the chance to once again try and get some answers. I had been talking shit all year on twitter, probing and ridiculing at the same time, so when given the chance to ask him directly, there was no messing around.
I asked him directly: “Richard, what is your plan to create a white ethno-state in the United States?”
All he could muster was a wave of the hand saying, “history has a way of working these things out.”
Unsatisfied I pressed him further, asking him a couple more times throughout the night. Eventually he snapped and started screaming at me, “GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY FACE,” he yelled.
Within moments we were separated, an answer to my questions still eluding me.
The next day Richard got assaulted on the street.
I wrote an article afterwards about Richard’s brand being destroyed. As the spokesman for this movement, his brand is obviously very important to the success of the ideas. As I challenged him on his goals, I also challenged his ability to lead a movement.
Ivan Throne, seeing the conflict and wanting to provide a forum for discussion, offered to host a moderated debate between me and Spencer. After much prodding, he declined.
Richard seems to be running from me at every stop. All year on twitter, in person at the inauguration, and when faced with a debate – Richard Spencer pussed out.
He clearly isn’t the muscle of the organization. His prep school background, trust fund lifestyle, and physical softness is quite evident. If he isn’t the muscle, then he’s the idea man right? He’s a spokesman. A thought leader. Someone like that should be trying to get the message out everywhere he can, recruting new people, defeating counter arguments. But not Richard. He doesn’t have the answers, making him a lightweight in more ways than one.
There happen to be other people in this space who aren’t intellectual lightweights. VoxDay, a writer and proponent of the alt-right, stepped up when Richard declined Ivan’s reasonable offer. He and I have agreed to have a moderated discussion on the future of the alt-right. It’s scheduled for Friday, February 3rd, 2017.
I appreciate VoxDay’s willingness to talk about these important issues. I believe everyone will benefit from a thoughtful discussion on the alt-right, white identity politics, Richard Spencer’s role, and the future of their movement.
Because when the movement we so willingly grasped onto turns out to be a bunch of idiot pussies- where do we turn next? I plan to find out.
Questions about the Alt-right?
In preparation for that discussion I want to know what you guys think. Do you have any questions or comments about the alt-right? What would you like me to ask VoxDay?
I’ve already received some great questions in DM on twitter. I’d love to see your questions here.
Tell me: what do you think about the alt-right? Do you have questions about it? Challenges? Are you in favor? Is it ok for white people to represent themselves as a group? What is the future like? What is the alternative to the alt-right? What would you ask VoxDay?
Thank you as always, and be sure to post questions to comments below: